When The Candle Blows Out

Dear friends who still reads my lonesome blog,

My life is a mess. Not in a way like oh-shit-I-have-no-idea-what-to-do-next but more like why-is-everything-everywhere and I-don't-want-to-care-anymore kinda mess.

Truth to be told, I'm second guessing if this stress load is worth my time and effort. I have chosen the road less taken. The intriguing roller coaster ride. The banishment of joy. The sorrow that created Edvard Munch's The Scream painting. But I'm still alive.

Deliberating the pathway to my future, I need to 'suck up' to this immense stressful times and measure the benefits of this experience that I would somehow gain from it to be put to practice in my future career as (hopefully and maybe) a lecturer/advisor.

As quoted by David Duchemin, he said "Failure is a much more faithful teacher than immediate success." Clearly he has not been in a position where failure is not allowed or he would have said "Everyone else fails but me, because I'm Asian and I was created to prove the impossible." Damn straight son.

Very stereotyping, I know. But it's true.

Till then,
Jean
High Achiever Asian Girl Wannabe